Sometimes Life Sucks

You know, sometimes life sucks! No matter what you do, how hard you work, how much effort you put towards something- life doesn't always turn out the way you had it planned. So, that means it sucks. You can work 40+ hours a week, making as much money as your boss will allow you to get paid, and it still isn't enough. Bill collectors keep calling, and Christmas is quickly approaching. Everyone wants something, yet no one is willing to help you.

That's where we are right now. I'm not complaining. I work all the time. I rarely see my family. When I do, it's usually because someone did something and I'm the person who has to jump to save the day. I should be used to it after a lifetime of being the saver in the family. Unfortunately, not the money-saving kind of saver... just the day saver. I can turn a bad day around. I can make a sad person happy. I can bring light to the tunnel. Sure, it will likely burn out, since I'm not an everlasting flame myself.

I do the best I can. My SO does the same. This year, Christmas will be thinner than last year. Bills are piling up. Collection calls are coming in. Sure, we know we'll have money again when tax season arrives. But until then? We're likely going to be suffering. I make enough money for food and some fun stuff. When we need socks and underwear, I always find a way. My SO? He works and pays the bills. Come to find out, he hasn't been paying all of them because he's been skipping a few here and there. Our lights were turned off last month because I had no idea the bill was over $1,000.00 Somehow, he paid it, and we've been trying to catch up on the rest of the stuff since.

I owe $2,000 on credit cards. I'm trying to pay those off, as well as keep the family happy. I'm trying to make soap to sell, but getting that going isn't easy. I want to get paid to do things I enjoy, but I didn't know anyone to get me into that door. I want a better paying job with better hours, to keep me out of the driver's seat. Physically.

One day at a time.

Somethings you just have to believe life is going to help you with. There are always ups and downs. I make barely $25,000 yearly. That is nowhere near enough to live on. Somehow we always make it.

I need more money, More time, More everything. I need to find a way to get things to turn around and get us out of this horrible state of depression. Some how, some way.

I don't even know if I'll have anything under the tree for my 3 kids, less than 2 weeks away now.

Have Faith

Many religious groups talk about having faith. Being pagan I share the concept although it's having faith in the universe.

Last spring I lost $10 when I went to the gym and dropped my id. A few days later, my partner went out to get his usual morning coffee and money fell out of his pocket in the truck. The $10 bill was gone. I had faith that there must have been someone in the world that really needed that money.

Now we're hurting for money. This morning, going about my usual day, I found a beat up $20 bill on the ground.

It just means the universe thought I could use it now, and someone else needed it before.

I always try to remember when I am forced to go without, it is just the way the Goddess and God want it to be.

I have this wonderful opportunity to sell my handmade soaps in a store. I finally found my packaging that I really like. Of course, I cannot easily find the paper I want to use for my wrap. Although, I did get the stickers! One step at a time!

In the meanwhile, I have an etsy shop. I have to make more soap, order more labels, and get the paper so I can get my soap into the store front I have been offered. Now's the time to act! 

With 

Love and Light

Merry we meet, merry we part, merry we meet again.

Blessed Be

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